Today I am sick.
My wide pointy nose is like a running waterfall.
I made it through a lovely sunday of church and then proceeded to return to the homeland to sit and stew in my illness.
I'm making it sound worse than it is. My nose is just red and hurty.
Today I feel really grateful for all the things that I have.
Especially my husband Ryan.
I love this boy so much. I can't believe the amount my love has increased for Mr. Decker since the day I met him. When people say "things things grow ripe with old age," let me tell you. "They ain't lyin." I really and truly LOVE him.
With Valentine's day coming up my brain is frantic with thoughts of what I am going to do to make that day special. I have never had a special someone on this holiday. I want to do something that is unique to our love and our relationship. Something I read in Stephanie Nielson's book "Heaven is Here" is that on birthdays they take that person and do a balloon launch. Meaning they get special birthday balloons and release them up into the sky. I was thinking of doing that with Ryan, and maybe we could write things on a card and send it up to Heaven.
When I was a little girl I once wrote a letter to my great grandfather, Fay Anthony, who had passed away. To the best of my memory I wished him the best in heaven and told him how much I missed him. I proceeded to put on my mom's very best lipstick and kiss the paper as though to recreate something I'd probably seen on T.V. I sent off the balloons with my letter attached and watched with excitement as they faded out of site. I think that would be a fun tradition to start.
Anyhow I just wanted to say how glad I am that I married this kid and am enjoying every second of eternity we get to spend together. One of Ryan's favorite movies is the Notebook, when I saw it for the first time is was because he made me and boy did I sob. How embarrassing. I was a mess. I loved that they passed away together still as much in love as they were the day they got married. That is how I want Ryan and I to be. Someday when it's our turn to fall into the deep sleep of forever I want us to go together.
My Ryan is proof that Heavenly Father is there always watching over us and seeking to help us reach our highest potential and happiness. Ryan helps me be a better person everyday and I don't know where I'd be without him.
That's all for today. Goodnight.
